i sit here trying to gather myself, trying to figure out what's around me when I'm losing myself, today is a bad day and that doesn't mean everything is bad, I see around me, people, things, trash. I'm not alone, if I look to my right there is a couple who is walking together, she is pregnant, it's to the point where you can't hide it anymore, she looks happy and he looks proud, what could they be possible be talking about? maybe about the new life they're going to bring on to here? he seems awfully quite now, he put his arm around her shoulder and held her close, she is now laying her head on his shoulder, he looks proud again, and to my left there is a man holding a dog, possibly he took the dog out for a walk, he is wearing something very casual, cargo shorts and a red polo shirt, while the dog is a white indian Spitz, I've always adored that dog, maybe because my neighbour once had it and I've seen it everyday, he is now sitting there holding the dog, the vast sea infront of him and he seems to be holding the dog close while enjoying the pretty sky and sea, what could be possibly going through his head right now? most probably unlike me he must be grateful, people around me seem to have enjoying what's infront of them, the sky, the sea, the waves, the sand, and someone/something they love. but I'm here alone, is that why I'm not enjoying this moment right here? or am I just simply lost not knowing what to feel? if I could feel, i wish i could feel what they felt at this moment right now? was it gratefulness or was it simply happiness? am I too far lost to feel any emotions right now? or have i gone numb?